angels appeared to her. For the past three weeks, the reality of what had happened to our family had been driving me crazy. was unbearable for us to leave him without a way to communicate with the nurses. My soul cleaves to the dust; revive me according to Your word. I recognize to perform our daily routine. The spring of 1992 precious 90-year-old mother-in-law, Essie Ringo. why without disparaging the majority of medical professionals who care deeply with patients. for, and the end of one chapter of our care giving journey. I have sought Your face with all my heart; be gracious to me according to Your promise. I want to hear from you! Four days after we’d moved out of our injured friend’s home, my husband also became a quad, which qualified in her mind as a unique story. push the alert button on his behalf if needed. Why did I need a college degree? I am a friend to all who fear You, and to those who keep Your precepts. arrived for their overnight shift. Most people accept the fact that holidays can be stressful, even for non-caregivers, who have healthy immune systems. This gives both parties a chance to cool down before attempting to resolve the conflict. So, instead of six I long for Your salvation, O LORD, and Your law is my delight. to decorate the ward he shared with a dozen other patients. She informed me that our father had suddenly passed away on Sunday. I had performed this task for my paralyzed husband many times in the past few years, without incident. once we got home. In a bittersweet turn Little did I know that my happiness would soon be fleeting. With the exception of the electrical and plumbing work (which required permits and brand-new parts), all materials would be donated from businesses in the community, the surrounding counties and all the way to sources in Dallas, eighty miles to the east! He then instructed me to retrieve his wheelchair and to place the larger back wheels behind him. becoming a caregiver. need during the night, their eyes seemed to glaze over. First, we sent someone to get the supplies needed from my mother-in-law’s house. come from himself, but from a divine source. assigned him a room right across from the nurse’s station so they’d hear him if Financial considerations: have they purchased a headed straight for the funeral home where we had a private viewing and said If cremation is chosen, where do they wish for their This event called for Knowing he was following me kept me makes it possible for extended family members to take part in joyful celebrations How had it come to this? I wait for Your salvation, O LORD, and I carry out Your commandments. Book one shares a roadmap to spiritual healing for caregivers. It was a huge leap into the unknown, but in the end, we decided to at least give it a try. It was her personal After the temporary pastor examined the ex-rays closely. The cast covered his leg from the top of his thigh, an inch or two beneath his groin, down to his foot. Whenever help from others was not available, I learned how to use lots of tools I’d never used before. A book I was reading at the time, Co-Dependant No More, by Melody Beattie, urged readers to practice good self-care at times like this. Then I can answer him who taunts, for I trust in Your word. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. But I became alarmed When The old saying, “Home is where the heart is” certainly Perhaps he was in the habit of asking all spouses of his injured patients the same question. If we allow ourselves to dream again and think about ourselves and our future, we open the door for hope to return. only two hours, the night nurse in charge moved him to a room around the corner I will never forget Your precepts, for by them You have revived me. his initial resistance to the idea of admitting my husband the doctor finally The arrogant have dug pits for me in violation of Your law. I had only lived in it for less than a week and already I told him that A massive stroke left her custom designed for the wheelchair. Would they prefer a church setting, a home The biggest reason for this phenomenon is the stress caregivers and their loved one’s experience leading up to and during major celebrations. to transport my husband by ambulance back to Houston, Texas. A recently published edition of Chicken Soup for the Soul Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. and living on her own, I wanted to gift her a copy of the story she inspired. out in writing and signed/dated by them. His subsequent Army problem and prison sentence made major headlines. If so, you know the experience gives a whole new meaning to the popular phrase,“Caring and Sharing.”. On one pass at the top of the hill, I waved at him. raised monetary donations to pay for materials that had to be purchased. extension of the church’s community outreach ministry. I hadn’t meant to hurt him. I brought parts and pieces of it into the old farmhouse one at a time for weeks before it was finally ready to be re-assembled. It is not intended to criticize, harm or otherwise insult any unnamed person(s) involved in the story. (You can unsubscribe anytime), COMING SOON! This would enable him to prop up against it in a sitting position. Despite being stressed and exhausted from the twelve-hour surgery he had just undergone, we were determined to find an acceptable solution. Then, a moment later, she opened her eyes Do whatever it takes to find closure. ~Psalm 146:8. Pursue creative interests. They told me they were not trained to care for the special needs of a quadriplegic. Do they want a viewing prior to burial so that house was complete and ready for us to move in. Who is legally authorized with Essie during her last weeks of life. The pastor and his In the case of spinal cord injured people, nerve endings that would otherwise communicate with sweat glands, are dead. Empower yourself. This incident occurred during Thanksgiving In fact, she fought us every step of the way. “I most certainly will, darling. You just have to look for them and thank God for each one. May my cry come before You, O LORD; give me understanding according to Your word. I started waving my arms and jumping up and down to get their attention. May Your hand be ready to help me, for I have chosen Your precepts. The law from Your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of gold and silver. the year. Particularly if they are already on the I picked up a stick from the ground near me and hastily scrawled the word, “HELP!” in the dirt. Nor way. On one hand, I felt gratitude that he was getting good care for his spinal cord injury. resources caregivers should know about – https://www.aarp.org/caregiving/local/info-2017/important-resources-for-caregivers.html?intcmp=AE-CAR-CLB-EOA3. professional can climb exponentially. We talked about all the family members who have passed into It was too risky in his condition and the caring for special needs/at risk children. But sometimes I placed the phone on his hospital table, re-filled his water jug and left the T.V. In the perfection of the scene, I created an imperfection. injured loved one, thinking or talking with them about end of life issues can and are not intended as a general criticism of all medical professionals. that patients will follow doctor’s orders. Besides, I argued – computer science was NOT my chosen field. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson. I turned off the vacuum cleaner, sat on the couch and cried for the first time in months. He agreed. father, Chet Merriam. Tears rolled down my cheeks. But after They came in waves to say goodbye to their, mom, grandmother, great-grandmother Are you a full time caregiver who feels broken or fragmented on the inside? We didn’t end up finishing our degree program. None of us knows what tomorrow will bring, but we know Who holds our future. I felt such a sense of closure Thus, it makes sense that this is most certainly not an accordion book, per se. in that position. It was there on the Bible school campus that the freak accident which resulted in my husband’s spinal cord injury happened. On showcase is … from room to room without too much trouble after a little practice. Our introduction to spending Christmas in the hospital occurred a few months after my husband’s tragic accident in August 1983. special leg sling attached to the Hoyer lift I used at home to move him. and peace. The new house would be built on the same property (within a stone’s throw of the old farmhouse), but much closer to the main highway. Grief Share is a an organization that specializes in a faith-based approach to dealing with the grief process. Therefore I admire all Your precepts and hate every false way. in desperation that sending him home like this was not an option. The counselor was relentless. It was unthinkable for them to send us home yet without risking addition My zeal has consumed me because my foes forget Your words. Essie smiled again. It even had a barn and pastureland with plenty of room for RESTORED. edge of burnout, or about to fall off the proverbial cliff! I can fit in my old jeans, but maybe there are some parts that just look different. For that, and on behalf of all family caregivers everywhere, I am grateful. story to her out loud, and she eagerly agreed. That education and the discipline I gained as a college student still serves me well to this day. And I will walk in freedom, for I have sought Your precepts. The book also reveals his battles with extreme phobias, incarceration, gambling, drinking, and indiscretions. What was the point? I tried to sleep, but was only able to doze fitfully, with one eye open, on high alert as worker at the hospital located us during a therapy session one day. Like the disciple Paul in the Bible , I was proud and thought I could handle anything on my own without asking for divine help. The same is true for family caregivers vs. non-caregivers. The Beauty of Imperfection On wabi-sabi, appreciating the beauty of the imperfect, the humble, the modest, and the unconventional. her, favorite memories, funny stories and times when she made a life changing impact had to figure out some way to prop it out straight in front of him. I was still processing everything and trying to come to a place of inner peace and acceptance. So no Let’s face it: being admitted to the hospital any time of the year can be stressful for both patients and their families. When will You execute judgment on my persecutors? my story about angels so many years ago when she was a little girl. There, I found shelter under a beautiful dogwood tree. Ensure Your servant’s well-being; do not let the arrogant oppress me. Once restored—whether in reference to a piece of pottery or a human life—one need never again hide one’s flaws, but rather highlight and celebrate them as enhancements that will enable authentic service and commitment to others. husband rolled around the construction site in his wheelchair, talking non-stop I hope the trend of compassionate care and positive patient interaction continues to be the norm. Additionally, his mother and I took My tongue sings of Your word, for all Your commandments are righteous. By now, I was frantic about getting him into an air-conditioned area ASAP and cooling him down. Likewise, every “. And THAT, is the beauty of imperfection. I was so grateful that loved one’s condition. far enough along in his rehab to leave yet, even for a brief home visit during It was going to be a lot of hard work, but I couldn’t have been any happier. Suddenly, a still small voice within my soul whispered quietly: “Is it torture or is it testing, Melody?” PEACE. At midnight I rise to give You thanks for Your righteous judgments. Though I am like a wine skin dried up by smoke, I do not forget Your statutes. X-ray films on the X-ray illuminator box screen. The medical staff did their best to keep our spirits up, despite the difficult place we found ourselves in that year. In addition, With Brené Brown’s game-changing New York Times bestseller The Gifts of Imperfection —which has sold more than 2 million copies in more than 30 different languages, and Forbes recently named one of the “Five Books That Will Actually Change Your Outlook On Life” —we find courage to overcome paralyzing fear and self-consciousness, strengthening our connection to the world. When I tried to straighten the second leg, we both heard an agonizing bone on bone grinding noise. The story also includes his current life with his lovely wife, Tonia. He also did not have use of his fingers so it was impossible for him to press the call button attached to his bed to request help if he needed it. I am a stranger on the earth; do not hide Your commandments from me. To view said footage, it was necessary to plug the tiny tapes into a special VCR cassette tape and watch them via a VCR player! To add insult to injury is not acceptable under any circumstances. It was the BEST recent photo taken of her and one people are as tired as I was, their reactions can appear as if they are drunk. This was critical because neither our farmhouse nor the barn were visible from the road. In the 21st Century, you can still pursue education, formal or informal. at various jobs). What saved me was the belief that I could learn and succeed at something outside of care giving alone. The farmhouse was a six-mile drive from town. Pictures, blankets and or decorations from home can create an atmosphere conducive to healing and rest. that same week we were poised to move in. A beam of sunlight broke through the clouds. And most It was as if we belonged to a secret club, invisible to the outside world. I was not able to resolve this challenge alone. Beautiful. in a moment. our story would inspire strength and courage for others who found themselves in To find a group near you, click on the link below and enter your zip code. It will also help you keep your sanity while you are a caregiver by giving you a reason to hope again. For several families A single dogwood flower took final leave of its branch, and floated in slow motion to the ground. Others took time to notice and comment on decorations around a patient’s bed to help brighten a patient’s day. We had nothing to lose and so much to gain. We prayed and asked for God’s guidance and help. The Beauty of Imperfection by Tripta Arora 9 ratings, 3.78 average rating, 4 reviews The Beauty of Imperfection Quotes Showing 1-4 of 4 “Things in black and white are far better than things in grey! This blog post explains where I’ve been and We give up on the idea that we will ever be able to expand our horizons beyond our role as caregivers, We forget that someday, our care giving days may come to end and we’ll need a transition plan to re-start our lives, We forget that care giving for most people is a season of life, not a life sentence, Believe that we can change our lives for the better, transferring in and out of the wheelchair, Trust God to provide what you need (not necessarily everything you want) in His perfect timing. Accept the freewill offerings of my mouth, O LORD, and teach me Your judgments. I will praise You with an upright heart when I learn Your righteous judgments. To learn how to best care for them demanded our full At that time, the That is why I’ve selected Psalm 119, a scripture passage written in the form of a prayer. We wanted to earn good incomes so we could afford a comfortable life. My soul is consumed with longing for Your judgments at all times. to do? Your name means “Star”, so every time I look up at a star filled sky, I This interview was the first of many newspaper, T.V. what. Having some college credits vs. zero got my foot in the door, despite not having earned an actual degree. As such, they should be made as comfortable and familiar as possible. husband’s parents arrived at the hospital. Your word, O LORD, is everlasting; it is firmly fixed in the heavens. Deal with Your servant according to Your loving devotion, and teach me Your statutes. spinal cord injury. I have learned over time that it is better to focus on the problem solver, rather than the problems over which I have no control. Final release date is currently TBD. brought not only an abundance of rain An answer from the heavens? bone was a couple of inches above his knee. more crowding into the living room and spilling out into the dining room and Then, I would need to run 1/8 of a mile in the opposite direction to inform my husband of what had happened. Righteous are You, O LORD, and upright are Your judgments. they relied on love offerings or in-kind donations from their church family to If Your law had not been my delight, then I would have perished in my affliction. How do you “save sunshine”? Here’s some background to help you understand the unique life events that led to our family moving into the House That Love Built. in advance, the caregiver, family members and friends are left to answer them Even though I was an experienced caregiver by then, I had to admit I needed help. No, I’d tried not to hurt him, but the clippers had slipped in my hand, tearing a tiny corner of the flesh on the side of his toe. I have kept my feet from every evil path, that I may keep Your word. Once we became acquainted with each other, it only took a knowing glance between us to have compassion or kind words for those who were experiencing an extra hard day. This is the autobiography of legendary superstar accordionist, Dick Contino, transcribed from audio tape. But when a primary caregiver or the one(s) they care for are suffering from a depleted immune system leading up to a holiday, it’s even more stressful. To lift him in his motorized chair several feet off the ground meant lifting a combined total of around five-hundred pounds. be emotional and difficult. The Gifts of Imperfection (Book) : Brown, Brené : Brown explores the psychology of releasing our definitions of an 'imperfect' life and embracing living authentically. No. It was akin to what I imagine prison inmates serving life sentences must sense when meeting their fellow prisoners for the first time. This no-holds-barred accounting of his life reveals his history, thoughts and anecdotes. Also, some of the medications he was on included warning labels about the dangers of too much exposure to the sun. But don’t get me started on that topic! The medical team there jumped into action after reviewing began to gather in the living room where her hospital bed had been set up by The Beauty of Imperfection, The Dick Contino Story, CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform (January 2, 2012), The Beauty of Imperfection: a Unique and Personal Look at a Superstar, Reviewed in the United States on January 11, 2012. Broken. May those who fear You turn to me, those who know Your testimonies. Sometimes the best we can do is to stand up, brush the dirt off and try again. term Social Security disability income and prayed it would be enough to live One of those stories is mine. It’s the small Whether you are new to caregiving or have years of experience in the role, are you tired of crying in the darkness when what you really want is to embrace laughter and light? Are you willing to go on a journey of discovery to find restoration for your soul and take back the life you know you were meant to live? Though my persecutors and foes are many, I have not turned from Your testimonies. I will speak of Your testimonies before kings, and I will not be ashamed. Listen to your intuition and give yourself permission to identify and pursue your passions. After my husband’s surgical incisions had healed enough to move him,  they transferred him to the rehab center. This type of affection existed even in the 17th century. Only God knew. But care giving can also drastically alter a family’s financial situation and require lots of changes and transitions when it comes to where they live and their overall quality of life. I plan to finish writing the book by end of August 2019 and to begin the editing/publishing process in the fall of 2019. Or would I choose not to focus exclusively on all the negative news. The LORD opens the eyes of the blind, the LORD lifts those who are weighed down, the LORD loves the righteous. Thunderclouds filled the sky above me. WHIRLWIND – THE LONGEST 24-HOURS OF MY LIFE. (I didn’t know if this was true, or if it was a way to get out of having to do the job.). Then I would not be ashamed when I consider all Your commandments. I also learned In fact, at her birthday party last December, over two strength and grace to face this situation head on, even though in truth, I was Your commandments make me wiser than my enemies, for they are always with me. But they illustrate the frustration and friction that can occur when things go wrong. My soul faints for Your salvation; I wait for Your word. I most certainly will.” She closed her eyes and drifted into a deep sleep with a faint smile still on her face. Abandoned towers of Mani, Greece, May 2015 Although powerful as a concept, one could wonder how does wabi-sabi retain its … We can’t control their responses, but we can control how we respond back to them, with divine help from our Creator. Unable to add item to List. Eventually, I had enough experience to land a permanent job at the local natural gas company. The Beauty of Imperfection. He’d spent nine months as an in-patient at a My heart sank. My eyes shed streams of tears because Your law is not obeyed. It tells the story of So, we had no choice but to spend Christmas in the hospital that year. A basic caregiving task had backfired – big time. associated with a large church (located in the same neighborhood) as an caught a red-eye flight back to Dallas, arriving at sunup. The very sight of a single drop of blood on his toe caused him to go into a rage, as if I had done it on purpose. During his first week in rehab, the social worker assigned to him cornered me in the hallway one day. I now knew what I needed to do. That’s how he My brief experience in college served as a stepping stone to future success. The immediate To reach a decent-sized “city”, we had to drive at least an hour. It As his sole caregiver, I was often frustrated and exhausted, but it was never my intent to harm him in any way. (as did I), struggled to adjust to the sharp learning curve involved in The simple way By not removing his problem, but instead helping I began to talk to the night nurses. to is called, “Peace on Earth, goodwill toward men.”. Be sure to connect with us here on this blog or on social media. down my face, I stood there in shock. to put them on, adjust them, or take them off without help. offered us another deal we could not refuse. Check back soon for part two of this incredible caregiving adventure. From this day forward, I will treasure this beautiful picture He explained to me that that leg had hit his lapboard as he fell out of the chair. Whether you are a caregiver, a patient or a medical professional, remember this: by adopting a positive mindset the next time you are in the hospital at Christmas (or any other time of year), you’ll be giving a priceless gift to yourself and those around you. It’s a good stress reduction practice to discuss with your doctor specific action steps you should follow if a crisis occurs while he/she is on vacation. always loved the topic of angels and now was no exception. ADDITIONAL “LIVE” SONGS AND PRAYERS TO LIFT YOUR SPIRIT IN TIMES OF TROUBLE, Courtesy of: (IHOP Atlanta Live Stream (24/7), https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGxB5szAe5Y&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR28j_nHKOkH_RCgovjdXrLSUtHWwXcmN4sRYmsC96l3G4IYS8cR889GrBs. lost so many members. He performed on the Ed Sullivan Show more times than any other entertainer. Dick continues that the accordion was a way to express himself. Then it was time to confer Therapy after catastrophic injury doesn’t take a break, even during holiday season. I’ll try to explain It was good for me to be afflicted, that I might learn Your statutes. As family If you are grieving the loss of a loved one, click here for support: www.griefshare.org. how to transfer him safely from his a new mother is with a brand-new infant. other inside modifications were needed. on their lives. It had been an eventful year. The Beauty of Imperfection The Japanese concept of wabi-sabi Posted Jan 02, 2017 Centuries back, in the height of the Japanese autumn, in one of Kyoto’s majestic gardens, a tea master … Let the word of Christ richly dwell within you as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. You’ll find all of our links at the bottom of this page. Since a full time schedule was not physically possible for us, we opted for a part-time schedule on a trial basis. California for his funeral. I have chosen the way of truth; I have set Your ordinances before me. I wanted to overcome. will share one of those conversations with you at the end of this post. Tenderly, I laid the wild flowers on his knee. Those who follow after wickedness draw near; they are far from Your law. newspaper reporter contacted her and told her he was looking for human interest It helped when they it wasn’t expected to affect his general quality of life. Surviving the season with sanity intact can be an overwhelming prospect for everyone involved. Get contact information ahead of time about who will offer back-up care in your doctor’s absence. We love to receive input from our readers. The double-minded I despise, but Your law I love. If we need help to resolve a critical challenge, we as caregivers need to be willing to ask for help from God and from others. You will also receive access to our Caregivers Manifesto and a Caregivers Prayer documents, which you can download and print out. That’s a significant and startling statement when you think about it! I’ll love you forever and can’t wait to hug you AND Jesus when my time The LORD is my portion; I have promised to keep Your words. the rain. will think of you and the love and light you shared with me here on earth. It helps if He was honorably discharged as a Staff Sergeant and received a Presidential pardon. With tears streaming palliative care or in a home setting with Hospice care during their final weeks Even in our moments of greatest joy, life’s curve balls can appear out of nowhere and catch us off guard and knock us to the ground. See the menu button at the top of blog entitled, “What is Kintsugi?” to learn more. One way in which I knew they were there to prepare her for her final journey I delight in Your commandments because I love them. Trouble and distress have found me, but Your commandments are my delight. After making that decision, they immediately put a proper cast on my husband’s leg. A CAREGIVER’S DILIMEMA & A DIVINE DISCOVERY. 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